Monday

Everything is back to a regular schedule in our household. Dan (my partner) is at work, my son at daycare and I should be working away on a client's project. Instead I am spending 15 minutes thinking about the project and then 15 minutes cleaning something in our house and then time in between thinking about Caleb.

I can not focus on anything. I space out all the time now. I am not really here. This is all a dream...
At least I wish it was.

I feel like every thing is still moving around me but my own life has stopped. I am trying to get it to restart itself and move forward but it is really hard to move.

I miss having Caleb in my belly.
He should be there kicking away and he is not.
Today is a not so great day.